Disconnected

Half-Father

Half-Mother

From their loins

From their lineage

Paternally

well-known

Maternally

not so much

Reservation break

two generations prior

Alien to kin

all spark

no fire

Quest made known

Asked

“Going savage?”

I think

Gladly

I say

nothing

I have learned

speaking with fool

lowers IQ

Smoke signals sent

Reaching out

snail mail

social media

cellular

modern Ma Bell

Conspicuous silence

relation rift

untold

stumped

decisions

Seeking elsewhere

invited

Join Beaver People

in Pacific Northwest

OSU

Professor Singingeagle

a hummingbird

here and there

now nowhere

Cornelius (Neil)

more truth

semesters compounded

Degrees beckon

have I learned?

I reckon

In my veins

mixed blood

metis’

In my mind

hundreds of years

First People’s history

Warring with each other

or French

English

Spanish

others

Many tribes extinct

some on brink

of destruction

Decimation

Bullets

Disease

Trash treaties

Sitting Bull

Black Kettle

Crazy Horse

Hoop circle

Many rituals

Another course

 

Knowledge

cherished

more than many full-bloods

And yet

still disconnected

 

© JW Thomas

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20 thoughts on “Disconnected

    • jwtatfbc April 2, 2016 / 3:34 am

      It does, my friend. But I know that a lot of people feel disconnected at times for one reason or another. We just work our way through it.

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      • jwtatfbc April 2, 2016 / 3:39 am

        That’s right, Pretty Lady. Nobody can do it all alone.

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      • Mary Cathleen Clark April 2, 2016 / 3:44 am

        Quite a few of your posts of late have dealt with your Indian heritage. I may have asked you before, but what tribe is in your bloodline?

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      • jwtatfbc April 2, 2016 / 3:46 am

        I am 50% Welsh, 25% Cherokee, and 25% Choctaw. And I recall you have some Cherokee in you as well, right?

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      • Mary Cathleen Clark April 2, 2016 / 3:53 am

        Yes, Cherokee…I think 1/16th. Not a lot, but if I were a mind to move to OK, I would more than qualify for all the perks Indians have there. I live close to the state line, and as soon as one gets into OK, the casinos start popping up. There’s a humongous one just a couple of miles from my home.

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      • jwtatfbc April 2, 2016 / 3:56 am

        Oklahoma is where my maternal lineage comes from. But my maternal grandfather moved to Texas during the so-called “New Deal” the government jerked them around with. And I live close to the Warm Springs Reservation now, but they are a confederated tribe of three groups.

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      • Mary Cathleen Clark April 2, 2016 / 3:55 am

        I don’t know the percentages, but my mom told me she had Indian, Irish, and Welsh ancestry. My dad had a lot of German.

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      • jwtatfbc April 2, 2016 / 3:57 am

        Interesting mix, to say the least. Have you ever thought about doing one of those ancestry researches?

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      • Mary Cathleen Clark April 2, 2016 / 4:03 am

        I have copies of documents and transcripts from when my maternal grandmother’s father got onto the Dawes Final Roll. That’s as far as I know on that side. On my dad’s, one of my sisters documented back hundreds of years. I have copies of those papers somewhere.

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      • jwtatfbc April 2, 2016 / 4:05 am

        That’s cool. I enjoy finding out about people and history and where others came from and how it may have effected them, etc.

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      • Mary Cathleen Clark April 2, 2016 / 4:09 am

        I think you have an inquiring mind, JW. Mine just sort of floats along with the clouds. 🙂

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      • jwtatfbc April 2, 2016 / 4:13 am

        There is plenty of time to do both. And the world would be pretty boring if we all did everything exactly the same all the time.

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      • jwtatfbc April 2, 2016 / 4:23 am

        I definitely do. And the knowledge has helped me in many situations, especially in my own life issues and lessons.

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      • Mary Cathleen Clark April 2, 2016 / 4:28 am

        My next to oldest sister (I have four) has a doctorate in philosophy. When my first husband died, she helped me through some of the rough patches. She’s one of those, like you, who has insight into why people do the things they do.

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      • jwtatfbc April 2, 2016 / 4:31 am

        I have to admit it’s an interesting field; though I studied psychology, and only took a few philosophy classes. And I’m glad she was there when you needed her. We all do need someone at different times.

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      • Mary Cathleen Clark April 2, 2016 / 4:35 am

        Yes, we do, my friend. 🙂 It’s bedtime for me and the book I’m reading. Goodnight and sweet dreams, JW.

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      • jwtatfbc April 2, 2016 / 4:36 am

        Goodnight and sweet dreams to you as well, Pretty Lady.

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